Journey Through Life

I want you to take a moment and remember where you were in life one year ago, three years ago, even five years ago? What were your inspirations? What were your goals? What challenges and fears did you face then? How have they differed today? Every person around us including ourselves have different paths and journeys in life but we all share something in common….trying to balance it all. The ups, the downs, motherhood, family, our careers, finances, staying motivated, staying healthy, feeling good and beautiful about ourselves. Life isn’t always what we expect and we’re thrown curveballs all the time. I know it may seem like I “have it all together” and living the “picture perfect” life, but let me tell you I’ve faced more challenges in the past few years that I thought I couldn’t bare at times. But I’m a true believer that everything happens for a reason and God has a purpose for why things happen the way they do. I think I had to face my fears and go through the difficult times to truly appreciate where I’m at today and for that I’m incredibly grateful. I know I’m getting deep here and I promise my future posts won’t be so heavy lol, but I want to always be my real authentic self and hopefully take my stories and experiences to help other women feel like they can come to a judge-free place where you can feel inspired and motivated and know that you are NOT ALONE in this journey. 

I felt like I had hit rock bottom when I unexpectedly loss my mom in April of 2018. She was the closest person in my life…my best friend. That kind of pain never really goes away, there’s days where I still struggle with it a lot. During that time, my husband, Trevor, and I were still dating and beginning to get serious. I honestly don’t know what I would have done if I didn’t have him in my life at that moment. I don’t have a whole lot of family nearby and he completely became my rock and from that point on he became my family. That was a moment where I feel God placed him in my life at the exact right time. It made Trevor realize that life is short and you just never know what can happen, but he knew he wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. Shortly after, he proposed!

I had finally found some joy in my life again and became very excited to begin the wedding planning. We actually planned our beautiful wedding in three short months! Yes it can be done and stress-free…I’ll be sharing in my next post steps to planning your perfect day! Our wedding day was a complete dream; everything I had always imagined. Can’t wait to share our special day with y’all on here as well. 

While on our honeymoon in Italy is when we found out we we’re pregnant! I had no idea we’d be having double the love with TWINS! After our two week honeymoon, we got back home and my pregnancy journey began. I wish I could say I was one of those women that loves being pregnant and had an easy pregnancy, but unfortunately that wasn’t the case for me. At 21 weeks, I started going into pre-term labor! TERRIFYING!! I had already suffered one loss, I couldn’t imagine losing my unborn babies too. Thank God we got in the hospital just in time for them to perform an emergency surgery to place a cerclage (I’d love to hear other mama’s stories that have experienced having to have a cerclage too). From that point on in my pregnancy I was on strict bedrest until the babies were born, definitely not what I had pictured my pregnancy journey being like but I’m incredibly thankful we made it through.

On March 26th, 2019, my precious son, Klaus, and beautiful daughter, Marin, were born weighing a little over 4lbs. They were perfect in every way and we instantly fell in love. It’s so true what they say about your “mommy intuition” that kicks in. Two weeks after they were born, Marin was just off. I could tell she wasn’t quite herself. We took her in and the doctor said she was fine. But by the time we got back home she was so lethargic. We immediately took her to the ER and next thing you know they had her up in the PICU doing a spinal tap to make sure she didn’t have meningitis. I remember just praying over and over for her to be ok. She ended up having a rare type of virus that started off as an infection which eventually led to her intestines slowing down. After two l-o-o-o-n-g weeks of her being there on IV antibiotics and fluids, she started gaining her strength back and was finally able to come home. It was the most scariest, stressful experience we had to go through being first time parents. Thankfully, they both are such strong and healthy babies today with their FIRST birthday right around the corner.  

All of our journeys and paths may be different, but we all struggle at some point and face really hard times. So as women and as moms…let’s be there for another, let’s lift each other up, be each other’s cheerleaders. Let’s end the stigma and mom guilt about the desire to want time for YOU. That doesn’t make you a bad mom or selfish for still wanting to care for yourself. Even though we are moms now and it is the most beautiful gift we could ever be blessed with, we are also still the girl who likes to go dancing with our girl friends, or have our glass of wine, or date our spouse. I know it can feel like we lose ourselves a little bit becoming first time moms; all of a sudden our life went from being carefree, young, and only having to worry about ourselves to our entire life changing with a perfect new little being that completely relies on us. It can be overwhelming, but it also brings purpose to our lives. It builds the beginning of our families. You are still YOU. Don’t forget that mamas!

Thank you so much for caring enough to take the time to read a little bit about my journey and what’s inspired me to create this blog. Now that I’ve introduced myself and my family, I hope you’ll stay a while for more on family, health, and beauty shares <3